23/05/2021 Personal Values & Integrity Index

Day Twenty One.

Don’t really know why, but I felt pretty miserable today, kinda weird.  Not for any reason, well actually there was a catalyst, but not a reason I guess.

With a big storm upon us, and storm surf to boot, surfing was the agenda today.  Although that didn’t go too well.  I went surfing twice and had two shit surfs.

Surf number one was with my son who on the paddle out cried because his head was cold, then he moaned because it was too windy, then said he felt sick, then he proceeded to ride a wave in and bump his head on the rocks on the way in.

I caught two waves.  And I think that’s what got me annoyed.

Don’t get me wrong I love my kids surfing with me, but there’s a balance whereby if I give too much of myself and my time surfing, then I don’t get to surf myself and I lose one of the biggest joys of my life.

So, there needs to be a bit of a boundary there.  Just a little.  It can’t be all give, give, without nurturing myself.  A bit like putting an oxygen mask on first before anyone else.  Can’t help anyone else if you’re not alive to help them right?

Anyway, I think that’s what put me in a bit of a bad mood.  And from there proceeding to my second surf it was so shit that that annoyed me too.

Plus, on top of all of that I didn’t get any work done, didn’t really do any learning, and didn’t really eat that well or do anything that exciting.

Tasks for tomorrow, to be better than I was today:

Learn, create.  Much more of those two things.

- Rowan.